I OVER-THINK. IT DESTROYS ME INSIDE.

Workout plan

Daily or 4/per week

1) Quick stretch
2) 10 Sit-ups
3) 50 Jumping jacks
4) 15 mins --- Run/walk --- Treadmill
5) 30 Sit-ups
6) 15 Side leg lifts --- each leg
7) 50 Jumping jacks
8) 30 sec. --- Wall chair
9) 14 Stretches --- Stretch Out.

Ps; Go swimming as much as I can and when I can.

Every Week food diet schedule

FWI: 

- I don't have a specific number of cals to take everyday, it's just gonna stay under 600 cals.

- I tend to purge/throw up everyday. Sometimes it's on purpose, sometimes it's cause I can't keep the food down (due to my habit of purging).        

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1. Example: Monday (Day one)

Breakfast: 1 pack of Regular Oatmeal = 110 cals

                Water = 0 cals
                1 cup or so of Honeycombs cereal = 160 cals  

Snack: 1 Fruit Cup = 80 cals

Lunch: 1 Small juice box = 90 cals

           14 Baby Carrots = 30 cals
           1 fruit cup = 80 cals

Snack: 1 Yoplait Tube = 50 cals

           Water = 0

Supper: 1 yogurt = 90

             Water = 0

             1 Sandwich (2 slices of white bread; 66, half a slice of ham; 55, 1 tbsp of mayo; 40) = 161
             1 cup of Honeycombs cereal = 130 cals

              

Total: 661 cals


-_-  i didn't know/realise i passed over the limit of my calorie intake. wow the first day i do a mistake. pathetic. i shoulda been smarter.

i failed. again. i'm soo bad at this. i can't even go ONE week... ONE WEEK, without cheating or failing. i missed a few workout and cheated lots.

i just have bad resistence against foods. sometimes i do, sometimes i don't. i hate it when my friend offers me food and i tell her "no, im not hungry"  and then she'll be like " please!! i feel awkard just me eating and you're not.. blah blah blah"  and i keep tellingh im nto hungry, im not in the mood to eat, and she keeps begging and getting mad that i'm not saying 'yes'. and so i give in. she SOO ANNOYING.

she worser than my mom. atleast when it's my mom i can tell her i already ate, or i'll eat it later... she'll only give me a kinda sad look like if i told her 'practically once-a-month cookings' are disgusting, but then right afetr, she'll be like "oh ok then".  and that's the end of it.

GOD i hate this. if i can just have CONTROL, that'd be good. everything else sucks. i'll try something else tomorrow... new week, new style of diet.

i don't know where i currently stand in my diet now. it's like am i still on it or not? Is it complicated..??

i just hope to have lost ATLEAST 1 pound this week.

im nervous.

im lost :/