i failed. again. i'm soo bad at this. i can't even go ONE week... ONE WEEK, without cheating or failing. i missed a few workout and cheated lots.

i just have bad resistence against foods. sometimes i do, sometimes i don't. i hate it when my friend offers me food and i tell her "no, im not hungry"  and then she'll be like " please!! i feel awkard just me eating and you're not.. blah blah blah"  and i keep tellingh im nto hungry, im not in the mood to eat, and she keeps begging and getting mad that i'm not saying 'yes'. and so i give in. she SOO ANNOYING.

she worser than my mom. atleast when it's my mom i can tell her i already ate, or i'll eat it later... she'll only give me a kinda sad look like if i told her 'practically once-a-month cookings' are disgusting, but then right afetr, she'll be like "oh ok then".  and that's the end of it.

GOD i hate this. if i can just have CONTROL, that'd be good. everything else sucks. i'll try something else tomorrow... new week, new style of diet.